DEB's TeA PaRTy

i was confused. don't know why have so little eager to write these days. no matter how i persuade myself, i just couldn't control it well. the feeling of scary, confusion and unsteadiness. for one moment, i was totally freak out, by my own self. The dark side of a human-being, those greedy, yielding, jealous chariteracteristic, make me doubt my very belief. i know very well that i can't do it. i am surppose to follow my young-day dream in the future way, not allowing any shadow  cover my real thought, which already melt into my blood, deeply.

i ought to keep telling myself that everything gonna be fine, despite not now, but any second in next minute. the world would be ok, just not now, not this moment. how can a prisoner drag himself out of the jail but still feeling satisfied? the path's change dramaticly, even though only for that one person, however it still become different.

every single step that we make in this minute would've make slightly or no different for our current lives, but it will, just not now. it certainly will. these not-a-big-deal decisions we make now could change our lives,entirely. so, just prepare youself.

(........what presenting above is totally a mess. i don't even know how it could make any sense. just like those crazy talk. not a damn sentence seems reasonable..............)